Psalm 22:19. O Lord do not stay far away! You are my strength, come quickly to my aid!

Preparing my Heart - I have spent this week preparing my heart, calming my mind and trying not to let small things rattle me. But as the time grew closer, I felt rushed to get things done, last minute decisions needed to be passed on and not all were received well.

Unfortunately, I did not respond well either. Confrontation on both sides threw my heart into a panic and everything I had spent my week preparing seemed to disappear. I tried to grasp on to calmness but felt my heart pounding and an anxiety attack sneaking up.

Of course, when it was over, I berated myself and told myself that I had not handled that well at all! So much for tact. So, I just felt that I was not going to be ready to go at 2pm and that it left everything high and dry, so to speak. So I cancelled my physio appointment and stayed at the office. I spent another hour finalizing details and sending renewals.

And that was how I brought things back to normal too. I was able to close my door and refocus and finish finalizing details, setting phone messages, etc. When I was ready, I reopened my office door and was able to deal with a spunky mouse and lazy cat situation. And the follow up with the tenant was completed.

Tell me, how do you stop anxiety from creeping into your day? How do you stop the snowball effect when things are not going well? Tune in tomorrow, when the travelling begins. I fly out of Ottawa at 10:45a.m.


Dear Father, give me quietness and calmness in my soul. Allow me to be a channel for your goodness and kindness. Be my guide as I return to Nicaragua and experience the culture there and see the differentness.